Monday, September 7th, 2009 at
9:30 am
I have always had a very hard time sleeping, but as of late I have been dealing with a number of things, and have found my insomnia to get worse. I have tried almost everything. I have tried the old trick of counting sheep, just counting in general, meditating, self-hypnosis, complete silence, background noises, complete darkness, some light, fully lit rooms, warm milk, clearing my mind, taking walks, reading, watching tv, etc.
Recently, I couldn’t take it anymore, and decided that I would take every nightime/drowsy/pm drug in my medicine cabinet in excessive doses, all at once, in an attempt to sleep. I drank half a bottle of nyquil, some other substance that looked almost like nyquil, took 3 or 4 tylenol pms, took 2 doses of benedryl, and washed all of that down with some wine. After an hour, I still was not close to sleep, and decided to try that which has worked for me before: alcohol. It is very hard for me to relax, and alcohol helps with that. Well I’m 19, and my parents don’t drink very much, so alcohol is not very accessible in my house. I drank about 2-3 shots of bourbon, and a couple glasses of wine, and yet I still couldn’t sleep.
The only effect of all of this was that come morning, I was quite unsteady, and it took me a while to stand and make it up the stairs,
Anyways, does anyone have any tips or tricks which help to find sleep?
…I know this may be contradicting after the story of that one night, but I don’t trust medications that mess with my consciousness or mental facilities. I will NOT take sleep medication designed to induce sleep, and I will NOT take any prescription medication that prevents me from retaining my mental facilities.
Also, as much as I hold sleep dear, and would very much like to achieve it, I am a firefighter, and need to be able to wake up in the middle of the night to go to calls.
Just a few additions after reading answers:
1. I have smoked weed 2x in my life, and regret every second of it.
2. I have tried trance music, and am actually listening to some right now that isn’t helping at all!
in accordance with one answer in particular, there is a problem in my personal life which augmented my “depression”. My girlfriend who I planned on spending the rest of my life with, broke up with me after losing her father, and is now seeing someone else. That caused me to do many many things I greatly regret, and I find it hard to help people as I live my life trying to do. In fact, I end up hurting people which goes against everything I stand for in life…